Wednesday, February 26, 2014

1,000 Subscribers

Yay!!!!!!!!! I have finally reached 1,000 subscribers on my YouTube channel (!!!! I'm so excited. I put tons and tons of work into my videos, and it feels absolutely fantastic to know people care. 

In celebration, I'm considering hosting a giveaway, except I'm not sure how to go about that! I was considering maybe contacting an Etsy shop, or a smaller online shop, but I don't know where to start! If you guys know anyone who is credible, and would be interesting in taking part, let me know either in the comments down below, or contact me at This is my ~professional~ email address. 

I think this was definitely perfect timing. As I mentioned yesterday, I've been feeling a little out-of-myself recently, and this has given me such a huge morale boost. I feel so inspired to do even more. I feel amazing!


Tuesday, February 25, 2014


A little snippet of my room.
Stay sassy, everyone. 

How has your week been so far? God, it's only Tuesday. I know, it's awful.
This is the first time this whole semester that we're having a full school week due to all of those nasty snow days this year already. And I'm almost speaking too soon because the low (with windchill) tomorrow is anywhere as bad as -30. Woooooo, Chicago! The strange part of this all is that the sun has a spring feeling to it, even though the air is so biting. I cannot wait for spring. 

I've been feeling rather strange recently. Today, especially, I've been feeling this melancholic nostalgia. I mostly attribute this to the fact I used a purse I haven't used since freshman year, and suddenly I felt like another form of myself. Yesterday in my AP US Government class, we learned about the different roles of the president and how they all overlap each other at the same time. I've been feeling like that recently, with different factions of my self existing all at once and coming to the surface when I need them. I feel like little slices of who I am are showing through, like I'm wearing 50 hats at once, each a different layer of who I am. 

Part of me wants to just be very minimalist and appreciate all of the little things, while another part wants to collect as many little tea cups and sets and just be happy. I'm not really sure what makes me happy at this point; it kind of shifts a lot. I've been feeling pretty incompetent recently, and honestly all I want to do is crawl up in bed and watch K-dramas and Disney movies. But I randomly get these spurts of energy when I feel like I'm on top of the world. I guess it's just regular teenager-hood. 

I had this cute little photoshoot with myself, testing out this new portrait lens my dad gave me. Aren't the photos so pretty? I've always been in love with shallow-depth-of-field. Also, ignore the high contrast and low-res quality. I'm not sure why Blogger has been uploading some of my pictures like this, but I apologize! Also: isn't this the most adorable apron on the face of the planet!? My dad gifted it to me for Christmas, and I finally got the chance to use it a couple of weeks ago.

I guess I'm just in another slump and I need to find my way out. What do you do when you're feeling not sad but kind of uninspired? Let me know.


Thursday, February 20, 2014

Falling Out

Hey guys! I can't believe I've been absent from here for an entire month. I've been hitting myself on the back for it every day. I have so much to share with you guys, but I just couldn't get myself to sit down and write up a post. It was weird; I'm really sorry. I'm trying to get back into the groove, and I think I've just been devoting a lot of my time to reading and making YouTube videos. It's funny how I finally meet my goals regarding those two, but I slack off when it comes to blogging!

But apologies aside, I feel like I have a million things to show and share with you guys. Yet when I come to type it out, my mind goes blank. It's funny how that works out.

I've been really happy recently, actually, and I'm loving every minute of it. After the retreat I went on, I felt more free to be myself, knowing that I'll find acceptance despite all of my weirdness and quirks. I've also been working on redecorating my room, incorporating more greens and tans in excitement of the upcoming spring, no matter how far away it may seem. I'm just about to get everything put into place, and I'll be sharing pictures of it soon.

As just mentioned in my most recent YouTube video (It's a thrift/retail/miscellaneous haul), I just developed a few rolls of film I've been taking with this little digital film, point-and-shoot camera I thrifted at the end of December. I love how complaisant and dreamy the photographs ended up being. And the best part was, the camera was only $4! It's also small, and I've been shoving it in my purse and taking it everywhere with me. 

I start working again next Wednesday, and surprisingly, I'm incredibly excited about it. I hate not having my own sufficient form of income, where I can provide for my little endeavors. It makes life easier, and I actually really like working. It makes me feel productive. 

Even though it's pretty normal, this is one of my favorite pictures off the rolls of film. I feel like I captured some sort of feeling I've had this winter. I've matured and changed so much in just the past 6 weeks that I'm almost alarmed by it. It's crazy to look back at pictures of myself from even 6 months ago, and not even recognize the person forever immortalize in pixels. Before and now. Interesting to think about. 

I'll see you guys either tomorrow or the day after. Don't worry, I'm not going to flake out again. I love posting, and I actually have no idea why I just never got around to it before. Until then, happy Thursday. :)


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